Ramlings from philosophy class

Currently sitting in my Philosophy class (yay ..... not). Yes you read that right I'm doing a photography and one of my subject for this term is philosophy.  Joy! ....-_- 

In all seriousness though I'm not too bummed about the subject. It could be very interesting, it just totally not what I expected from a subject titled 'ideas and thought'. I am acutely aware of how much of a challenge this could be for me as a Christian. I stepped out of my first class last week so disheartened and depressed, I knew then that this would not be easy. That is such a feeling of Godlessness in this room, like everyone is missing the whole point.  It's all about making argument and thinking deeply. I had thought originally that this subjsect would give me cause to doubt my faith but I'm finding that in actuall fact it will give me strength. My class mates as far as I can see are not grounded in anything. How can you pass though life without think that there must be something bigger than yourself.
St Augustine claimed that first you must believe than you can explore to understand. But I don't think that this is true, sure I mean blind faith can be a beautiful thing is some senses but in reality it is stupid. You must have some knowledge in order to believe and I think that the church has come a long way in allowing those that want knowledge the ability to question and seek knowledge (and if not I would have been kicked out along time ago)

Blogging while watching this pointless video that is meant to show us what the monasteries looked like in the middle ages, but really it's boring me to tears (not literally) and I think the lecture had nothing better to do for the last 20 min of class....
bored bored bored 

oh yay class is over! 
cya

Disjointed

So tomorrow is the first day for the rest of my life,and today was one of the worst of my life.
I was already dreading today because of a previous engagement and then received the news this morning that my Nanna had died :( I'm okay. My Mum is surprisingly okay, I guess she was expecting it. It's really hard for her because she's the one who will have to hold herself up and get everything organised. Nanna it the first person close to me to die who wasn't a Christian, so that's really hard. Where is the hope in that? I trust God's plan even in my grief.

Tomorrow is my first day of classes at Raffles I'm terrified, nervous, trepidations and ecstatic  all at the same time! 
With all that running around in my head all day I thinks it's time for bed.

Many apologies for this shabby and disjointed post. Here's some amazingness I found on YouTube to make up for it

Much love

Introducing Toby :)

Hey hey world!
This post is brought to you by Toby. "Huh"? You say. World meet Tobais, Toby for short. Toby meet the world. (This is the part where I explain that Toby is my new laptop and you realise that I'm a strange girl who names her tools.) 
Why 'Tobais'? Basically I brought my laptop for school and in doing my course I want to bring glory to God and I want to use this computer as a tool to do that. I just typed 'boys names meaning glory to God' into Google and a Yahoo answer came up with a whole list of great names.But I liked Tobais the best it means "God is good". Which He is and now if people ever ask me why I named my computer Toby maybe it will start a conversation about God. :)
Side note: Tobais was also the name of a character on Animorphs that I thought was super cute. ;)
If you were paying attention there you would have noticed that I did strictly type "boys names" my inner feminist is coming out. You'll be happy to know that my phone's name is Wendy. I'm getting there.. lol :) (don't worry if you don't understand this tangent)
I'm already loving having my own computer again. Awesome things about Toby include: touch screen (so cool) and the keyboard is backlit (handy for lots of last night blogging ... I mean studying ... cough cough...) 
I am quite disapointed in my shallowness tonight I had meant my next blog to be a info post on Occupy Sydney this wonderful organisation God led me to last week. I am sorry I just was so excited about Toby. I promise I will write about them soon.

:)