Hazmat fire call

Efemulate?

Please forgive the vast generalisations, gender stereotypes, and the somewhat unintentional feminist undertones. Hopefully you will understand my point and not get offended.
I occurred to me yesterday they there is no feminine for the word emasculate. And the weird thing is a feel quite strongly about this.
To me the word emasculate means the make a man feel like less of a man or manly. And is often used when a man cannot do something that is 'stereotypically' deemed manly. I think that part of being manly is being able to take pride in being able to do 'stereotypically' manly things. Thus being robbed of ones pride in feeling emasculated. And in there being no feminine for emasculate there seems to be a suggestion that there is no pride in being womanly or feminine. What do you say when a woman feels like less of a woman? If she can't do things 'stereotypically' deemed feminine.
From my understanding and personal experience men tend to have more of a pride complex and are more often and more easily offended when their pride brought into play. Women tend not to be so sensitive. However, I do believe that there should be a feminine for this word because there is pride in being feminine.
Okay I'll stop now.... Don't judge me.
<3

Recent happenings/learnt things

Let me premise this entry (?) by appoligising for the shocking quality of the photos, they are phone photo after all.


The first photo is of the beautiful Lisgar gardens (link) where Flo, Jono and I had a picnic lunch. Here I learnt that even nature that is not totally 'all natural' can truly beautiful. Check out these gardens. Places like these never cease to amaze me. These little nuggets of nature (even if sightly manufactured), tucked away amongst the bustle of suburbia.


The second photo is of my wall after I took the couple shots of Scott and I off and put whole heap of new ones up. He's still on my wall though, he was after all a huge part of my life. This was a really hard but necessary thing to do. I guess this was a comforting reminder that I'm really not a vindictive person and I am pretty proud of that. 






The next photo is of my win in Small World, 100 coins! Yeah! Fia, Phoebe, Jono and I played Small World, this surprisingly awesome board game. Here I was abruptly reminded not to be judgmental and that things I've never tried before can actually be quite fun. Thus I should try new things more often.




The final photo is of a little waterfall I found on my run today. I use the terms 'found' and 'run' fairly loosely. Due to the facts; that I went looking for it when I heard it and there was very little running involved respectively. God revels himself in the most beautiful of ways. I am trying to go 'running' more often maybe I'll even get up to a stage where I can say I'm going for a run and not have to follow it up with 'well walk' or 'I'm gunna try'.



Other lovely things without photos:
Our bible study had a what can you fondue night on Wednesday night, super yummy.
My boss just gave me another studio permanently.
And and.... I can't think of anything else which is a shame lists I feel are more complete in threes.

I guess I should mention the elephant in my life at the moment...
Ahhh the wedding (my ex-boyfriend's (weird that's the first time I've written that) brother's wedding) that I'm still invited to and consequently am going to. Am I nervous? Yes. Does my mother think that I'm going to have an emotional break down? Yes. Do I have trepidations? Yes. Am I ultimately excited that two people I care about are finally getting married? Yes!

To be fair I am pretty scared about seeing him at the wedding, I do think I am underestimating how hard it will be for me. I think that's a me problem I abhor weakness in myself. I need to let myself feel whatever comes. (But please God let the tears hold off until after the ceremony, on the way home?)
I am super blessed with the most awesome of friends. One in particular, Flo who's driving down and back to the wedding with me. THANK-YOU.
To end on a happy note: I got the perfect ribbon for my shoes to match my dress! I post a photo of my outfit after Sunday.

Photo shoot

Latest photo shoot - in my garden.

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Break-up playlist

Scott and I broke up. Two weeks ago. I'm doing OK, getting there

This one is my break-up song it's weird but it makes me Happy.

 

Book Quotes

 

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The primary duty of literature is to tell us the truth about ourselves by telling us lies about people who never existed

— Stephen King

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The novel is an event in consciousness. Our aim isn’t to copy actuality, but to modify and recreate our sense of it. The novelist is inviting the reader to watch a performance in his own brain.

— George Buchanan

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Even today I hunt for the fabulous books that will change me utterly. I find myself happiest in the middle of a book in which I forget that I am reading, but am instead immersed in a made-up life lived at the highest pitch. Reading is the most rewarding form of exile and the necessary discipline for a novelist who burns with ambition to get better.

— Pat Conroy, My Reading Life

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For some of us, books are as important as almost anything else on Earth. What a miracle it is that out of these small, flat, rigid squares of paper unfold world after world after world, worlds that sing to you, comfort and quiet or excite you. Books help us understand who we are and how we are to behave. They show us what community and friendship mean; they show us how to live and how to die. They are full of all the things you don’t get in real life… and quality of attention: we may notice amazing details during the course of the day but we rarely let ourselves stop and pay attention. An author makes you notice, makes you pay attention, and this is a great gift. My gratitude for good writing is unbounded.

— Anne Lamotte in Bird by Bird
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All the books we own, both read and unread, are the fullest expression of self we have at our disposal. … But with each passing year, and with each whimsical purchase, our libraries become more and more able to articulate who we are, whether we read the books or not.

— Nick Hornby ❝

The books that the world calls immoral are the books that show the world its own shame.

— Oscar Wilde
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When you reread a classic, you do not see more in the book than you did before; you see more in you than there was before

—
Cliff Fadiman

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Reading requires an act of empathy, really. What you’re doing when you’re reading a book is saying, I’m going to turn off who I am for a little bit, and I’m going to enter the personality of another human being. Reading is a very generous act, but it’s a very helpful act if you really want to understand what another person is like.

— Gary Shteyngart
The best moments in reading are when you come across something - a thought, a feeling, a way of looking at things - that you’d thought special, particular to you. And here it is, set down by someone else, a person you’ve never met, maybe even someone long dead. And it’s as if a hand has come out, and taken yours.
dividedreality:
-Hector
The History Boys, Alan Bennett

Things I love

Ten activities:
Kayaking
Ab-sailing
Ballet
Craft (pretty much any thing with my hands but especially jewelry making)
Photography
Surf skiing
Swimming (the in a creek kind not the compeditive lane kind)
Driving
Spot lighting (or shooting in general)
Quad biking

Ten games:
Imagine if...
Taboo
Articulate
The bomb
Ninja destruction
Been bag tag
Twister
Knock out
Pictionary
Have you ever?

Ten writers:
John Marsden
C.S. Lewis
Jaquelin Wilson
Charlotte Bronte
Jane Austen
L.M. Montgumary
Elizabeth Gaskel
Gregory Maguire
Harper Lee
Melina Marchetta

Ten web sites:
Facebook
Youtube
Tumblr
Gmail
Hotmail
Pintrest
Blogger
GMH (and affiliates)
Unfriendable (and affiliates)
Goodreads

Ten foods:
Chocolate
Carrot
Apple juice
Spag bol
Doritos
Chicken snitchel
Caramel slice
Meringue
Apples
Fantales

Ten famous lines from books/movies:

Ten paintings:


René Magritte's 'Time Transfixed'
 


 Guernica - Pablo Picasso.
 
Grade School Guernica. Ron English


 
 Jean-Honoré Fragonard, "The Swing",






Edgar Degas, Blue Dancers






















A Beautiful Evening - Constantine Lvovich

  Paradise And Her Birds - VIE DUNN-HARR
 Stairs I Climb - ALEXEI BUTIRSKIY

  Hyperrealistic Oil Paintings by Tigran Tsitoghdzyan

The Calm Before The Storm

Spent Easter week-end in Lismore for Shell's hens party. Here's some photos: