What do you do when the one thing that you had your heart set on, that was the direction that you thought that God wanted for your life, comes back as a BIG FAT (but eloquently worded) NO?
You cry, chuck a fit at God, run your fingers through your hair (a lot), rip up the envelope and chuck it all over the kitchen floor, then sit down to write a blog about it... of course.
(I should explain. About a month ago I applied for a for a summit fellowship position at Crusaders and I got the rejection letter in the mail today.)
My question is: What now? I've been pursuing this avenue for two years now, passionately believing that it was how God wanted me to serve him. It now is BLINDINGLY clear to me that God wants me to do something else. The question is what? I had many dreams upon leaving high school which I abandoned because I thought God wanted me to do this, but now it is clear he has other plans.
I know that God will never leave me and that I have to keep trusting in him. But the not knowing is the hardest thing.
God's got it all under control.
I do not know what will happen in the future but I know the guy who holds my future in his hands.
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